Choose..

Choosing between someone you love or someone who loves you.. 
Which one that you will choose? 
Or rather to be alone forever.. 

I don't believe in Karma.. I believe in GOD..

Not long ago, I had a conversation with a friend where he proclaimed a firm belief in the idea that "if you do good things, good things will happen to you." Further prying revealed that he did indeed have a strong belief in Karma. This is something that I could never buy into. So, I offered a counter-example, "Well, how do you account for an infant's death? A baby is born and after living for no more than a few days, he dies of an illness. Something bad happened to him, yet, he did nothing wrong. How do you explain that?"

Of course, I was fed a completely unsatisfying answer, "I believe in Karma but I don't think it always applies." So, basically, I'm being told that when you do good things, sometimes good things will happen to you and when you do something bad, bad things might happen to you.

Before I continue, there is one thing I should make clear. I think there is a definition of Karma that can be kept completely secular. I'm referring to the concept that by doing good things for others, they are more likely to do good things for you. The same would hold true for negative actions. Nothing supernatural is involved. However, the Karma I'm referring to here is the supernatural definition of Karma. The one that says it is a law of nature that you will be rewarded for good, moral actions and punished for bad ones. This supernatural Karma is what I believe is non-existent.

Let's imagine for a moment, a world without Karma (difficult, isn't it?). In this world, there is no balance between good and bad, meaning that doing good things does not ensure a stream of goodness coming your way. On the same token, you won't necessarily "get whats coming to you" for doing bad things. Therefore, the combination of good and bad that you or anyone experiences is based solely on the nature and actions of what surrounds you. So, sometimes when you do good things, good things will happen to you and sometimes when you do bad things, bad things will happen to you. Sound familiar? It should, because that is the exact same world being described by my friend who supposedly believes in Karma (sometimes).

As if it is necessary, besides the above example, there are plenty more reasons to discount the existence of Karma. For one, it intrinsically necessitates objective morals. If Karma is to apply to everyone, there must be some universal definition of good and bad. I think anyone can realize that morals are subjective. For example, one person may see homosexuality as evil and unethical, while others (me included) see it as a personal choice that does not in anyway present a moral quandary. On top of that, I believe morals can not exist without humans. Karma requires morals and morals were created by people. Therefore, Karma could only have been created by people. Unless someone has magical powers and was able to create an invisible, universal system to punish the "bad" and reward the "good", this is impossible.

Ultimately, as if it's not already clear, I do not believe in Karma. Just based on personal experience it doesn't seem to hold true and I think by its own nature, it is impossible.

** Pss: Jangan salahkan org lain atas kesilapan dan kelalaian diri sendri.. X akan jadi kecurangan kalau bertepuk sebelah tangan.. Renung-renungkan lah.. Selamat beramal.. :))

PEMERHATI SUNYI…

Dalam melaksanakan tanggung jawab sebagai isteri atau suami pasti ada kesepian dan kelelahan. 

Tugas rutin yang dijalankan hari demi hari, minggu demi minggu, bulan demi bulan sehinggalah bertahun-tahun adakalanya menimbulkan kejemuan dan kesepian. 

Putaran kehidupan, pasti meletihkan. 

Ditambah pula kadangkala oleh sikap pasangan yang tidak memahami jiwa dan perasaan. 

Ketika itu segalanya hambar dan tawar.

Jika itu yang sedang terjadi pada diri kita kini, jangan dibiarkan berlarutan. 

Bertindaklah untuk mengubah keadaan bermula dengan mengubah jiwa, pemikiran dan perasaan sendiri. Kita tidak mampu mengubah apa yang di luar diri tetapi kita boleh mengubah diri. 

Pertama, perlu kuatkan jiwa. Bagaimana? Apalagi kalau bukan dengan solat dan zikir. 

Siti Fatimah yang mengadu keletihan dalam menguruskan rumahtangga, mendapat kekuatan dengan berzikir subhanallah, alhamdulillah dan Allah hu Akbar yang diberikan oleh ayahandanya Rasulullah saw.

Pemikiran Siti Fatimah dilapangkan dengan didikan untuk mencintai akhirat melebihi dunia. 

Lalu dengan ’tauhidic mindset’ itulah terasa olehnya betapa kecilnya penderitaan dunia berbanding penderitaan akhirat. 

Justeru, dia rela menerima kesusahan dunia yang sedikit dan sementara demi mengenangkan nikmat akhirat yang lebih baik dan selama-lamanya.

 Emosinya jadi tenteram ketika kesepian, oleh rasa hatinya yang sentiasa merasai ada Allah yang sentiasa memerhatikannya. 

Begitulah perasaan orang yang hampir dengan Allah.

 Imam Ghazali pernah menuliskan, “ketika kau kesepian jangan kau katakan aku sunyi. 

Tetapi katakan pada diri, di sisiku sentiasa ada Pemerhati!”  

Dunia ini tidak lepas daripada rasa jemu, sunyi dan lesu. 

Nikmat yang diburu, akan rasa jemu apabila sudah dalam genggaman. 

Manis, seronok dan indah hanya sementara. 

Tidak kira yang nikmat yang bernama anak, suami atau isteri. 

Tanpa cinta yang mendalam dan menyala-nyala kepada Allah, segala bentuk cinta yang lain (cinta mahkluk)  akan beransur malap dan gelap. 

Begitulah fitrah hati. 

Cinta Allah itu tapak segala cinta yang lain. 

Bila cinta Allah goyah, cinta yang lain akan turut rebah.

Tanpa kembali kepada cinta Allah, kita akan menjadi pemburu cinta yang dungu dan lesu. 

Cinta yang di depan mata dipersia, cinta fatamorgana yang tidak nyata diburu bagai nak gila. 

Akibat jemu, sepi dan lesu, ada yang mula bertindak membuka lembaran cinta yang  baru. 

Mereka ketagih untuk merasai semula keharuman dan kehangatan cinta yang pernah dialami masa muda-muda dahulu. 

Orang lama ini bermimpi untuk menjadi orang baru yang hidup penuh keceriaan, bertenaga dan bermotivasi dengan menjana cinta yang baru.

Lalu wujudlah apa yang dinamakan ‘teman tapi mesra’. 

Suami orang dan isteri orang berhubung dengan mesra. 

Ini hakikatnya satu lagi ‘produk’ hubungan mungkar tajaan syaitan untuk menipu manusia. Kononnya, keduanya tetap menjaga perkahwinan masing-masing, tetapi mereka akan bersahabat dengan bertemu, bermesra, berbual dan saling meluah rasa tanpa pengetahuan pasangan mereka. 

Teman tapi mesra ini hakikatnya adalah perbuatan yang telah menghampiri zina. 

Istilah itu hanya dicipta untuk mengurangkan rasa berdosa kerana bermesra dengan isteri atau suami orang.

Tepuk dada, tanya rasa hati kita yang paling dalam, sukakah kita jika isteri meluahkan rasa hatinya kepada orang lain? 

Bagaimana rasa siisteri, apabila diketahuinya ada perempuan lain yang dimesrai dan diambil berat perasaannya oleh suaminya sendiri?

 Tentu ada hati yang terluka. 

Pasti ada rasa yang tidak rela. 

Sedangkan segala rahsia harus dikongsi bersama. 

Mengapa dia perlukan ‘teman tapi mesra’? 

Apakah  kerana aku sudah jadi ‘suami tapi tidak mesra’ atau ‘isteri tanpa cinta?”

My Doc Martens shoes..

Still remember about Doc Martens shoes that I've been dreaming of ??
Yeahh.. I got it already.. Sejak dua menjak ni x tau npe, lepas balik kje je, mesti berjalan sakan with Encik Kekasih.. Last Tuesday we went to The Gardens Midvalley.. Faizol drop by to Sole What.. Jalan2 dlm kedai and I found Doc Martens boots inside.. Yes !!!!Akhirnya.. X perlu ke S'pore.. Harganya lebih kurang sama dengan harga di S'pore.. RM469.. Worth it ! 

So I tried this boot.. 

Huaaaa.. Idaman hati.. Walk around the shop while trying.. Then Faizol tanye, are sure nk kasut tu ?? 

Pakai ke? 

SUDDENLY question mark berlari2 dikepala.. Betul jugak apa dye ckp. What should I wear with this shoes.. When can I wear it.. What jeans, what shirt.. Adoiii ! Sebelum ni x terfkr pon.. Sebelum ni nmpk cntik je.. X kan nk pakai sekali sekala.. Bnde mahal kott.. Sure Faizol will be so angry if I didn't wear it..

Goshhhhh ! I really like this shoes.. Then suddenly he come up with this Doc Martens platform shoes.. Cantik sgt.. 

Cntik kan... :) Pandai dye pilih..

And he said, U will definitely wear this syg.. Boot tu nk pakai bila jee...?

Okey.. He got the point.. So I tired this shoes pulak.. Berjalan satu kedai.. Berat nye hati nk pilih.. I love the boots.. But he got the point, betul lah, bila je nk pakai.. But this shoes walau pon x berapa suka, I will wear it selalu.. Decision, decision.. Okey I took the platform shoes purple colour.. Dgn hati yg berat meniggal kan boots itu.. :( This platform shoes is a bit cheaper form the boots.. RM429.. So Faizol jimat RM40.. Haha..

Its ok, Ins'allah one day if ada rezeki, I will buy the boots with my own money.. Thanks syg for the shoes.. Love Love.. :))

Terima Kasih sayang.. :)

Last Tuesday I'm on MC.. Same to encik kekasih.. Tapi encik kekasih tetap perlu ke office sbb busy. Okey fine.. So I drop him at the office and I went to Midvalley by my self.. ALONE.. Hehhh.. 


MNG is superrrrrr cool now.. Apesal ntah all of the item seems like x masuk akal murahnye.. 
They do the renovation to the store and now everything being so cheap? Hehe.. GOOD ! So saya rambang mataaaaaa lah.. Jeans is supper cantik and murah.. Shirt? T-shirt? Dress? Skirt? Argghhhh ! 


At one moment. Called encik kekasih.. 'Syg, saya nk bla bla bla and bla bla bla. Murah gile bla bla bla and bla bla bla..' And he replied, 'OK syg.. Beli lah..' OMG ! Green light.. :) So I grab the jeans, the shirt, the t-shirt.. Haha.. To the fitting room and they looked nice on me.. Bawa ke kaunter.. And bayar.. Wallahh ! Bestt..!


Kul 3.30pm encik kekasih called me.. 'Syg, amik sy.. ' Okey, on my way to him.. Dalam kereta he tell me this.. 'Jom pegi tgk HP..' Jeng jeng jeng.. Okey poyo..! Sblm ni, my birthday present IPhone 4 yg dye bagi, I bagi dye balik, sbb dye teringin nk pakai IPhone.. And he promised me to buy Samsung NOTE Pink ! 


Hahaha.. Okey fine.. Kami pergi lah mencari HP.. Cari.. Cari.. Cari.. Samsung NOTE RM1999.. Haaaa?? Hmm.. Okey, kesian laki saya nk beli mahal2 utk saya.. 'Baby, saya x nk NOTE..' Baik kan.. ? :p
So I've decided to take Samsung Galaxy S3.. Eh2.. S2.. Huhu.. Thousand five jugak tu.. Adoiii.. Kene ketokk lagi mamat ni.. Kikiki..


TQ sayang.. U made my day with all of this.. Muahhhx ! Love love love !

Top 10 Lies Men Tell Women

The average dude fabricates something six times a day-that's twice as often as women-and with LiesMenTellWomen trending on Twitter right now, some dudes are being called out. To try to get why guys are so crafty, we reached out to male relationship experts. Here are the most common whoppers men tell their girlfriends and wives-and what the real deal is behind each. 

Lie 10: "I'm Stuck in Traffic" 
"He figures it's much easier to just say this than to try to explain the real reason he's running late," says John Amodeo, author of The Authentic Heart. "Remember, men aren't as good at communicating as women are." The funny thing is, a guy will toss this line out even if what held him up is perfectly legitimate. Still, you shouldn't let it slide - it's a lie nonetheless. 

Lie 9: "It Wasn't That Expensive" 
"Men like toys, and they don't like sensing your disapproval, even if you don't share a bank account," Amodeo says. He could also be dropping this fib to try to prove he's responsible with money, says Barton Goldsmith, author of Emotional Fitness for Intimacy. "He doesn't want you to think that if you do share funds down the line, he's going to blow them all on things like plasma TVs." 

Lie 8: "I'm on My Way" 
Guys usually throw you this line when you're making them meet you at some event they don't want to attend - like, say, your family reunion. He's stalling, but he's also being pouty. Consider: He can't exactly refuse to go without enduring serious repercussions from you, and he can't very well throw a temper tantrum in front of your pop-pop. So saying this and then showing up late is his way of gaining a wee amount of control. 

Lie 7:"I Didn't Have Too Much to Drink" 
This lie could point to a serious problem - and we're not just talking about your relationship. If he says it often he could have an alcohol issue, Goldsmith says. You need to talk to him about how concerned you are, but watch the timing. "That's definitely a conversation you need to have when he's sober," Amodeo adds. 

Lie 6: "Sorry, I Missed Your Call," 
Lie 5: "My Battery Died," and 
Lie 4: "I Had No Signal" 
These three lines all mean the same thing: I screened your call. Why? "Often men will feed you these lies because they're afraid to tell you to back off a bit, that they need a little alone time," Amodeo says. You might want to ease up on the checking in and let him miss you more. 

Lie 3: "No, Your Butt Doesn't Look Big in That" 
Look, if you assail him with the question in the first place, you're really just asking to be thrown this all-purpose mollifier. "Every guy has a buddy who's told him, 'I answered this question wrong once, and my girlfriend wouldn't have sex with me for a year,' " Goldsmith says. This is the one safe response he knows, so there's no way he's going to risk the worst by straying from it. If you want an honest opinion, go ask one of your girls instead. 

Lie 2:"This Will Be My Last Beer" 

Our experts say this man-lie delivered over the phone means he wants to get you off ASAP so he can spend more time with his buddies. The thing is, even if he says it three times in a night, each time he believes it, Goldsmith says. It's like when you vow this will be your last cookie…five times in a row. 

Lie 1: "Nothing's Wrong, I'm Fine" 
A whopping 52 percent of men have told their girlfriend this line. According to experts, this go-to fib is all about avoiding drama and protecting male pride. Men know they're not as good with articulating what's happening or how they're feeling, so it's easier for them to just keep you out of the situation. Next time he uses this line, give him a couple days and then ask him again if he is still bummed…and why. By then he may have figured things out. 

GAMBARSEKADARHIASAN.. :)

Sedih ke, kecewa ke, cinta ke, rindu ke.. 
KESAH PULAK MAK NI.. ! :p

She is Half Human.. Half Vampire.. First ever Family Picture..

Cant wait for this.. :))

This is for YOU !

ABANG, this is for you..

Somebody That I Used To Know"
(feat. Kimbra)

[Gotye:]
Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[Kimbra:]
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

[Gotye:]
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

Now you're just somebody that I used to know.. So stay away.. So longgggg !

Bella Luna

 Song Of The Day.. :)

Mystery the moon
A hole in the sky
A supernatural nightlight
So full but often right
A pair of eyes, a closin' one,
A chosen child of golden sun
A marble dog that chases cars
To farthest reaches of the beach and far beyond into the swimming sea of stars

A cosmic fish they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constellation
No riffs and oh, no reservation.
If they should fall you get a wish or dedication
May I suggest you get the best
For nothing less than you and I
Let's take a chance as this romance is rising over before we lose the lighting
Oh bella bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Do do do do do

You are an illuminating anchor
Of leagues to infinite number
Crashing waves and breaking thunder
Tiding the ebb and flows of hunger
You're dancing naked there for me
You expose all memory
You make the most of boundary
You're the ghost of royalty imposing love
You are the queen and king combining everything
Intertwining like a ring around the finger of a girl
I'm just a singer, you're the world
All I can bring ya
Is the language of a lover
Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other

May I suggest you get the best
Of your wish may I insist
That no contest for little you or smaller I
A larger chance happened, all them they lie
On the rise, on the brink of our lives
Bella please
Bella you beautiful luna
Oh bella do what you do
Bella luna, my beautiful, beautiful moon
How you swoon me like no other, oh oh oh

U and Me..

Nothing can describe our love.. Maybe he's for me, and maybe not.. 
We can only pray the best for us.. Ins'allah miracle will happen and save our relationship since we always get into a fight lately.. Even though its end with a happy ending, but its not good for our relationship.. Hopefully we will last forever and the plan is till on.. :)

I cant wait to wear this !!

Hopefully everything went well.. :)

Baby Love

I remember like it was yesterday
First kiss and I knew you changed the game
You have me, exactly, well you want it,
And I'm on it

And I ain't ever gonna let you get away
Holdin' hands never made me feel this way
So special, boy it's your, your smile
We so in love
(love)
La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your la la la la love
Yeah we so in love, love
I want you to know
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything

Been a minute and we still holding it down
Butterflies every time you come around
You make me, so crazy
It's crazy, oh baby

And I don't ever wanna be with no one else
You're the only one that ever made me melt
You're special, boy it's your, your style
We so in love

La la la la
Yeah
We so in love
La la la la la
And I just can't get enough
Of your la la la la love
Yeah it's all I'm thinking of
Love, love
I want you to know

You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything

(Yeah)
Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh

[Will.I.Am]
You're my always and forever
You're my sunshine
On my mind, constant
Think about you all the time
You're my everything

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh

[Will.I.Am]
You my new school (love)
You my old school (love)
And it's so true
You're the one I'm thinking of

You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, everything that I could ever dream of
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
You're my every, every, every, everything
You are my baby love, my baby love
You make the sun come up Oh boy (oh boy)
(You make the sun come up on a cloudy day
You're my number one, you're my special thing)
You're my every, every, every, everything

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love

Everything, everything, oh
Everything, everything, oh
You're my everything
You are my baby, baby, baby, baby love






I AM SO IN LOVE WITH YOU... <3

Stickwitu

I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

[Chorus:]
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you.
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
See the way we ride in our private lives,
Ain't nobody getting in between.
I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
And I say

[Chorus]

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
I got you,
We'll be making love endlessly.
I'm with you (baby, I'm with you)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts.
So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

[Chorus x2]